Babies babies babies!

After a very dull day this made me all warm and fuzzy inside! I want one!*

*not yet though!!!

Life's big questions...

It's been a while since I last blogged and now I'm back it's a pretty deep one. I'm feeling rather 'thinky' today.

In my job I work with such a diverse range of students. I always try to find some common ground with all my students and not to make any presumptions. A lot of the time we're given background information before we meet and I guess it's only human to be building up a picture of what you 'expect' but I always try to come into each new 'relationship' (seems like a bizarre choice of word but that's kinda how the dynamics work) with a blank page, if that makes sense. I'll always remember something the college chaplain said to me when I first started as assistant welfare officer at uni. Ben (the welfare officer) and I were talking to him about his experiences as a chaplain and he was handing us some pearls of wisdom. Obviously as a university chaplain he'd dealt with all sorts of issues and all sorts of people. He said that he always held it in his heart that *everyone* he worked with had something good within them no matter how they appeared on the surface. There may be elements of someone's character and behaviour that he didn't agree with and didn't necessarily like, but he knew that at their 'core' there was something unique and essentially 'good'. I like that idea and it only just dawned on me how much the idea had stuck in my mind. I think that's quite a good mindset to have and it helps me to retain some kind of hope!

So...that had me feeling pretty positive about humanity. I often have a bee in my bonnett about some kind crisis of humanity. I know I can be melodramatic about these things and I've joked several times about my desire to 'save the world'. However even though I would like to 'save the world' I know I can't! Essentially I just want to be a good person and look after those around me, not just those I love but anyone I can support in some way. Feeling as though someone cares about you is a nice feeling. If I can go through my life and feel as though I've done that, and shown people how much I do care, then I'll be happy. I don't like to see all the crap that goes on the world - and there's a lot of it - and I know I can't save the world but I can do my bit, no matter how small that is and how little impact it has. I find it hard to come to terms with the fact I can't make everything better for people. It's a ridiculous notion that anyone could do that. I know that but it still bothers me. I think my job has helped me to realise that that's ok and nothing to feel guilty about, but I do still find it hard. And I get frustrated when I know someone is hurting and there's nothing I can do. I don't like to feel helpless. I don't suppose many people do.

Hmmm, so that's the crux of it really. It'd probably make more sense if I could put into context but I don't think this is the place to write about the things that got me thinking, so random it shall have to remain.